Monday, September 2, 2013
Sitting here thinking of my life. I am very lucky to be healthy and to have the family that I do. My Mom is 84 and has Stage 4 Breast cancer and severe arthritis and many other ailments and yet is still fun to be around. I am an emotional eater and I have been binging since last Tuesday because of My Mom's condition getting worse. She is on Pain control fulltime now. We are losing her to the drugs and I am not ready. I am starting again right now and realize it didn't help me to hurt myself with food to try and get relief. It did not work..... It is so different now when I choose to binge. I have been through so much with my weight it is finally good to just be. I find it amazing that at 52 I am able to be more at peace with myself than I ever have been. Alot of work has been done. When I look back at the last 10 years I see every step I have taken. All of them small at the time and all of them completed with the idea that if it doesn't work I can go back to the old ways..... I am for the most part wheat free, sugar free and artificial sweetner free. At least when I follow it I feel great. It is a false sense of fun when I eat the ingredients that I know hurt me. I am so happy I have found that this causes so many of my ailments. All controlable by my diet.....New information excites me. I read the book Wheat Belly!